Update + My Life

Hello peeps :) I'm finally back after 4 months! My MYE ended a few days ago so i'm kind of free to type a blogpost. I guess I have been busy with homework + watching kdramas + sleeping + exam preparation so I MIA-ed for 4 months :x So yea that's my update. Now I shall proceed to talking about my life. ( It's kinda full of negativity so brace yourselves )

My life isn't full of rainbows , I mean whose life is? But sadly. I don't have a true friend to go through this difficult life with me. My friends always use me and when they're done, they throw me aside and forget about me. I only exist when they need something. I'm always their second choice and always left out. They can make plans in front of me and not ask me out, but run to me whenever they need something. They forgotten that i actually have feelings. I always wonder whether it is my fault for being such an awkward person and for being so isolated that made me have no true friends, whether it is my fault for being such a "anything also can" person that allowed people to hurt me. This is my 9th year schooling and I have no true friends. I have no one to share my bottled feelings and I emotionally break down very often. No one's here for me and I feel like I'm drowning in my own sadness. Sorry, you'll probably not understand, 

Sorry , my blog post is very negative today.

Rest in peace , Alan Rickman

Having my favourite fandom to be harry potter, Alan Rickman's death come as a blow to me. It was a casual Thursday night, i was checking my whatsapp messages and a CNN news notification popped out. "Actor Alan Rickman dies at 69". I felt as if i weren't breathing for a few seconds.. 

Both in the movies and in real life, he made tears flow down my cheeks. Deaths of people i admire, love and treasure can shatter me at times. He was one i admired. His acting in the harry potter movies were realistic, sensual. His voice, it was deep and soothing. I wouldn't mind his voice as my ringtone. I can repeat videos of him being interviewed over and over again just to hear him speak. 

The world has lost another legend to cancer, that's all i can say. 

Alan Rickman a.k.a Professor Severus Snape

1946-2016,14th January 

Hello 2016 !

Bye 2015 ;)

Hey guys! Happy New Year :) Today marks page 1 of 366 :D The reason why i decided to do this blogpost is because 2015 has been quite a hectic year for me i guess.. ( i didn't say this in my instagram caption xD ) I honestly wish 2016 will be a better year.. Let's get started on this post!

2015 was the year i realised who was really there for me and who wasn't. When i went 'emo' during some period of time,those who liked me to be 'hyper and high' left my side. Those who cared, they messaged me whenever i typed a 'very emo' caption on my instagram post. I can only say, the number of people who cared was less than 3 and still decreasing. Still decreasing...,why? Idk..sometimes people just grew further apart from one another.. I saw quotes that relate to my situation here.

^ dedicated to person 'X' 

I was drowning in my pit of negativity and no one was there. No one knew actually. I was there wondering "Was i destined to not have a best friend for the rest of my life?", "Was choosing this school a right choice? Was it worth it to travel 1 hour on bus back home every school day? ".
Now people are wondering why did i choose cchy in the first place if i knew i was going to regret it. When i was primary 6 with a t-score of 232, i wanted to go to ngee ann secondary (t-score 237) However i was posted to spring field secondary with a t-score of 180+ for express stream. How was this fair to me?! Cchy accepted my appeal on the day i was about to go for some choir audition at temasek secondary. So yea.. I wasn't left with much choice.. Dunman secondary only accepted my appeal after cchy accepted mine.. Back to the topic, i was the only one among my friends who live in the east and during outings, they will choose somewhere closer to them for example, Jurong, Woodlands. I never get to travel home with my friends because they travel the opposite direction from me. .. It's tiring being lonely most of the time..

During 2015,I failed math for the first time in 14 years during common test 1. It left me broken. Math is my favourite subject. It's as if your crush just rejected you, that's how i felt. I didn't fail math since then and i wanna keep it that way for 2016 as well. My results for other subjects were horrible too. Mostly B4 or C5. The pathetic thing was that the only subjects i got an A1 were D&T, Art and FCE. I was failing English most of the time.. My science result just met the double science critetia ON THE DOT which meant that it was still risky that i might not get to take double science (but thank god i could in the end :'))

2015 was a tiring year, so much negativity. Based on my experience, all i can say is..
IT'S ALWAYS YOUR CHOICE to be happy or not ! When i mean by happy, it's not fake smiling but genuinely smiling. :) Easier said than done, i know. But look at the postive side of everything. If you get rejected, remember that "When a door closes, another one opens." It's your destiny. If you don't get chosen, then it means it's meant to be that way! For 2016, YOU decide whether you want your story to be in black&white or full of colours! 


-Berlynn aka Bearlynn :)

Cafe review : Supermilk

Yo! im apparently trying to do a review on a cafe... please note that i have pretty fussy tastebuds :x or my tastebuds might not be the "standard" you're looking for so yeaaa. I went to the cafe called Supermilk at Tai Seng! It's very near a popular cafe called 23 Jumpin. Actually i wanted to go to 23 Jumpin again to try the cheese fries (yas to cheeeeese keke) but my mum was disappointed the first time we went there.. :x Anywayyy, let's start the review!

We ordered Parmesan Chicken Linguine at $16, Supermilk bubble waffle at $10.90 (if i'm not wrong with the price) and lastly, a new item not on their menu yet called Fries Cream at $7+

The Parmesan Chicken Linguine was disappointing :c The saltiness was not evenly distributed. First bite and i thought it wasn't flavourful enough. Then second bite and i thought it was too salty. Apparently the chicken bits have more flavour than the spaghetti itself. Luckily my mum and i shared it between ourselves...:x

Parmesan Chicken Linguine 

Fries Cream which is vanilla ice cream + chocolate sauce  + fries was not bad :) Although i feel that it's just like mcdonald fries dipped into chocolate syrup ice cream which i have tried before in the past. Sorry lah im very negative but just being honest... The waiter said it was very very nice and it sounded convincing enough so i gave it a try. I think it's worth it ba. 20 (??) thick fries + vanilla ice cream + chocolate sauce = $7+ :) This dish must be eaten fast because the ice cream melts very fast with the warm fries.

Friessssss Cream !!

Lastly, my FAVOURITE of all dishes, BUBBLE WAFFLE! It not only tastes amazing, it is also a work of art! I chose cookies and cream ice cream :D The waffle was crispy on the outside,soft and fluffy on the inside. Topped with maple syrup and chocolate sauce,it was heavenly goodness! The decorations of course can't be neglected! There's a tiny pretzel,a few meringues(? the colourful thing) and biscuit rolls :) The waffle maker indeed has done a great job !! :)

So gorgeous C;

One flaw of this cafe is that the words on the menu are way too small. This problem doesn't affect me because i'm younger and have relatively better eyesight but it affects middle-aged people. My mum had to squint her eyes EVEN in her specs. In the cafe, i was the only teenage customer,others were midde-aged. I also heard from the nearby customers that the words on the menu are too small.

As for the service provided by the waiter/waitress, i am impressed, especially at one guy who was patiently explaining the dishes to my mum (cos like i said, she can't see the words on the menu). My mum was really really craving for soup and she was somewhat "making life hard" for the guy by asking if there's soupy stuff etc.( If i were him, i would have a mental breakdown. That was the amount of tension there.) The guy was still courageous and not quite freaked out, wOw. 

When my mum was paying money, she asked the guy how old was him and what school was he from. (pedo mum alert !! )  Guess what?? I thought he was of the same age as my older brother but he is the same age as me ..... The waffle maker who is a girl, is also of the same age as me and is the guy's classmate. Same age as me but i can't even fry an egg without breaking the yolk, #TotallyNotAshamed . 

Anyway, to conclude, i will come back to this cafe again but i'll probably only try the desserts. All these are only my opinions. :D  -Bearlynn

Address of cafe : 1 Irving Place , #01-29. 

Nearest MRT: Tai Seng 

gives off "tumblr" vibes C;

The day i turned 14 : 04/08/15

Heyyo anyone who is reading this! :-) As the title says, i'm going to write about my 14th birthday so let's begin!
Caution:  In this post, you will realise how unbelievably dumb i am. (( or maybe just a slow brain ))

How unfortunately , my birthday falls on a school day so unfortunately, i need to rise from beloved bed and unfortunately get ready for school. (The repetitive word is a skill learnt from english :D )
I stepped into class and went to my seat. Xuanying then walked over to my table and gave me a present! (like duh, abuden) She told me to open my present right away so yea, i did. Her present was so cute ^_^ hahaha.Liyu gave me a notebook with an inspiring quote heh :) . I think everything afterwards was pretty neutral (typical schoolday) until recess time.

Lol this is abit inappropriate to say but i wanted to rush to the toilet right after recess starts because i having a bad stomach ache ahem but weixuan, xuanying, zhixuan( are thr more?? i can't rmb.. sry bad memory..) wanted to take pictures with me :D  I held my shits in??? lololol i should stop continuing the shit part. Moving on, they brought me to the canteen with zhixuan covering my eyes at a point AND THEY SANG A HAPPY BDAY SONG FOR ME IN THE CANTEEN! I was so touched yet abit paiseh la cos so many people o.o My dear zhixuan actually planned and bought me a cake, with people chipping in money of course. Although i highly doubt anyone who chipped in will be reading this but by chance, THANKS FOR BEING PART OF SOMETHING THAT MADE ME HAPPY! :D
Firstly, i didn't expect a cake. I was never a sociable type of person who had many close friends and duh, why would i expect a cake? Secondly, i didn't expect a cake bought from zhixuan. The dumb thing is when she messaged me "strawberry or chocolate?" , i actually compared a chocolate bar with a packet of strawberries...... (i know my iq level very low shhhhh) so i replied with chocolate. She collected money from my classmates,bought the cake the night before my bday, stored it in her fridge, brought the cake to school by taking a 30min bus ride, asked the stall auntie whether she could store the cake in her fridge, brought alot of tissue paper for the mess. Look at the hassle she went through just to make my 14th bday a memorable one. Sorry let me just type a paragraph about her (abit off topic but 顺便 la)

If you don't like reading mushy stuff, please skip this paragraph.
 I know she's a very open-minded person and can easily offend people with her opinions ( she accidentally pisses me off sometimes oops :x ) But she's a quite kind person at heart who can lend you portable charger or anything..(EXCEPT MONEY! HAHAHAH) I guess people easily mistaken her good intention as a motive.. idk la but just don't be so mean sometimes 👼🏻 let's carry on to the main topic

For the cake portion, zhixuan got the largest slice HAHAH. I didn't mind cos like i didn't pay money soooo im like guilty af already. Of course to those who chipped in money, they were like jokingly saying like " i pay $6 just to eat this small slice" etc haha. We went back to class after finishing eating the cake and took more photos :) The rest of the school hours, things were back to normal schooldays. That doesn't end my birthday adventure :)

CCAAAAAAAAAA 😭 
Some of the choir members wrote and drew well wishes on the board :) hehe.

This was the one i took pic with but the board was still an incomplete masterpiece. ^

^ complete masterpiece ^_^

Anway..my conductor came in as usual.. She saw what was written on the board and I WAS SURPRISED she didn't ask the commitee to erase the board. She said the bottom middle chibi girl looked like me lolol and then she asked the choir to sing a bday song to me.. Me being awkward af was there standing like an idiot, listening to people sing to me.. ( u feel me? 40 people singing to you..)
Afterwards was serious training, no time to lose since we were practicing for my school's ndp. The most unpleasant thing happened, she stormed out of the room..again.. It was because we weren't enthusiastic with our dance movements ( if im not wrong? this happened months ago, pardon my inaccurate info) So yea, i was like half happy,half unhappy? then like we were released at an earlier time (yay for me, can go home eat cakes and open prezzies)

My parents came fetch me with jarcakes in the car ^_^ I was checking out the stuff in my paper bag then i saw this anonymous little pack. Inside were 14 sweets. Anyway, a card was inside and it says a particular person's name. If (by chance again lol) you're reading this, thanks.

Im done with my long blog post. Thanks to those who contributed to making my birthday a really wonderful and memorable one. Wo ai ni men :)     -Bearlynn